In the sixth century BC, a Chinese scholar named Lao Tzu wrote 81 short essays, the Tao Te Ching. Rather than a word, each Chinese symbol represents an idea. Thus Lao Tzu was able to express great wisdom in brief passages. You might say that the Tao Te Ching is the earliest book to fully explain the Law of Attraction.

Friday, January 29, 2016

Grokking My Unique Reality

This blog has sat quiet for three and a half years. Lots has happened in my life, and I'll probably write about some of the changes as time goes on. 

Quick update

I moved to Mexico for three years, and then back again to the US two years ago. In Mexico, I began to recognize my hyperempathic experiences, which I'll write about one day. Since coming back to the US, I've begun to have mystical experiences as well. An MRI confirmed that there's no physical cause, no tumor pressing on the amygdala or some such. It's been an interesting several years! 

The upshot has been a more and more reclusive life. I can't seem to be around people, even over the phone, without taking on their emotions. I can't block it, and it takes me awhile to get back to my joyful self. The upside is that sometimes I help people, and I occasionally get beautiful insights, the latest of which I'm sharing today.


I had a lovely spiritual insight a couple of nights ago. I suddenly "grokked" (my daughter gave me that word, from a Robert Heinlein novel, it means to get something on an empathic level, rather than intellectual). The insight was that all of our perceptions are neurons firing in our heads, our entire perception of the world, including all our memories. It's hard to put into words, these things always are. But I suddenly grokked that none of it is "real" in the everyday meaning of reality. My "reality" is absolutely unique to me, because it comes only from my neurons firing in their own unique way. 

I had a vision of a soft white cloth wiping away the dark spots from my brain, cleaning up the detritus. It was lovely and calming, and stays with me. It made sense to me of the Catholic practice of confession and cleansing, which I've never really understood. It's a simplified way to convey the peace that the past doesn't exist, for those who can't grok it.

Thank you

Thank you for continuing to visit this blog, even when I disappear. I appreciate your interest and support. I can't promise to be consistent in posting. I seem to take on entire personalities, including total disinterest in writing! Arggg. But when I'm joy-filled me again, I'll share.

Wishing you peace and love, and many hugs!


  1. Hi Mary Carol!
    It's nice to see you back! This is fascinating, what's happening with you. You've become an empath?! I look forward to seeing what else you talk about here!
    I've not been that active in the past three and a half years, since my son died suddenly, but in that time I've felt more reclusive. I haven't given up on life, but I don't seek out the company of friends as much as I used to - I am content to be here alone. I still connect online, though, perhaps I've just transitioned?! :o
    Anyway, I am happy to know I will see you around the blogosphere again!
    Lori Gosselin

    1. Hi Lori. It's great to hear from you. I'm so sorry about the death of your son. I well understand the instinct to solitude. I'm just getting back to online communicating after two years away, hoping it will lead to fewer empathic experiences than physical contact. It gets overwhelming.

      If you're interested in the activist side of spirit, I have another blog at, where I try to write about how insights about oneness might lead to action.

      Thanks for the encouragement to keep writing about my empathic experiences. It feels vulnerable and exposed, and the support helps a lot.